Every person in the whole world has a dream. I'm really sure of it, even it just a little. But, I think that I must have gigantic dream because I know I just have one chance to live in this world. Use that chance and dare to catch your dream. As other people' dreams, I wanna go to around the world, especially go to europe and america. It heard simply but I'm not care anymore what people say.
I told you, that my first step to reach my dream was continue my study overseas. But, after one year preparation, I failed. I wanna go to Malaysia, there is a one of the most popular university. I think I can get link and many friends from other country. However, I never go there, because I've got problem on my toefl score. I was really sad about it. Damn you language, why you set the highest toefl score to get there? Ahh,I really annoyed because my score still low :((
But, I think positively after 3 days later, maybe there're other chances outside to make my dreams come true. Yah, I believe that, always try to believe, Maybe not this year, but next year or the next other year. Big amiin....
Then, now, what should I do now? I think another step is language preparation. What language is that? I answer, WHATEVER, france, germany or netherland? Let I know if you all readers have some information for me. I search for language preparation is given for free, especially around central jakarta. Anyone know?
I really hope that info as soon as possible.
Thank you ...
Hope your dreams also come true. Fighting till the end !! :))

If you had a chance to do something, then you will make a choice between it. Take it or leave it? That's all depend on your need and passionate, even your luckiness. I'll always get headache when I should make a decision. I try not to put my feeling on it, but accidentally I used that. Oh, damn, I really hate use my feeling..
Think and decide logically is all that I want.
Then, i think positively for decision which I made. I'll get that for some reasons and I never felt sorry for that things. I think in another chance I'll never lose again. I hope it too much and now I'm waiting to do that.


*actually, I don't know what I write above, I just gonna scream out loud because I can't speak what I feel*

Stand UP

Speak UPPilihan

Smile UP

Live UP

Hello night-people, I just thought randomly about being mature, especially independent-person. Dan seketika teringat cuplikan sebuah iklan kartu seluler yang terkenal dengan kata : 'jadi dewasa itu gak gampang dijalanin'. Yap, I strongly agree that quote. Serasa itu iklan ngena banget ke orang-orang yang dalam proses menuju dewasa atau bahkan sudah dewasa seutuhnya. *jleb*

Dan itulah yang aku rasakan sekarang. Dewasa itu proses, yang menurut aku too much things that are complicated. Dulu, waktu masih pake seragam putih biru, aku selalu berpikir 'enak banget jadi org dewasa, bebas berpendapat dan mau ngapain-pain ya terserah kita'. Yang ada dibenak aku dulu adalah kebebasan ketika kita dewasa.

Sekarang, aku memang ngerasa diberi kebebasan dan kepercayaan lebih oleh orang sekitar, tapi ternyata setelah dijalanin, tidaklah sesuai bayangan. Menjadi dewasa itu butuh sikap dan sifat yang nunjukin kedewasaan itu sendiri. Makin dipercaya kita sama seseorang makin banyak pula harapan dr orang tersebut yang harus dipenuhi. Jadi, makin berat dan banyak pula beban yg dipikul.

So, sebenernya kalo ditilik lagi, aku yang saat ini sedang menuju proses dewasa itu, tinggal berpikir simpel 'just let the process flows and do your best in every way'. Karena kalo kita terus mengeluh jadi dewasa itu gak enaklah, banyak beban, bla bla bla.... Maka, kita tidak akan pernah dewasa, justru malah makin terbebani dan akhirnya stress.

So, don't let your stress ruins your future, but show that you can hold on in every problem.

It's been such a long time not posting something here and suddenly I missed wrote everything. Yap, mood nulis lagi muncul dan entah kenapa beberapa hari terakhir ini kangen ama kota satu ini, Solo. Kota kelahiran, sejuta kuliner, pemandangan epic, warganya yang ramah dan sopan, dan masih kental akan adat jawa-nya. Ah, I missed all of the things here. Rasanya selalu nyaman aja kalo mudik ke kota ini :)

Jadi, ceritanya kerinduan akan kota ini dimulai pasca lebaran tahun ini. Oia lupa, HAPPY EID MUBARAK 1434 H to all moslem around the world, keep a holy heart and Minal Aidin Walfaizin y'all. Okey, back to topic, Yap, selepas lebaran balik kekota asal, Bandung, tetiba kangen banget sama suasana di rumah embah tepatnya, yah, meskipun sejak 2 tahun ini kalo lebaran gak bisa sungkem lagi ke embah. Mungkin embah uti udah tenang di alam sana. Suasana rumah embah di solo itu asri banget. Bikin suasana hati nyaman, walaupun sepi sekalipun, berasa tenang ajah. Kalo di Solo juga gak pernah nemuin yang namanya macet. Mau kemana-mana jadi berasa deket, dan terlebih lagi, Solo itu kotanya rapi, bersih, dan teratur lalu lintasnya.

Point plusnya yang bikin ekstra betah buat mudik ke kota ini adalah, makanannya. Ah, such a heaven. Sosis solo, timlo, selat, sego liwet, garang asem, es dawet, cabuk rambak, pecel ndeso, daaaaaaaaann masih bejibun lagi kekayaan kulinernya. Ditambah, orang disini ramah-ramah dan rasa kekeluargaan masih ada. Jadi ceritanya, waktu itu pernah magang di suatu perusahaan bumn di Solo, nah aku tinggal di tempatnya mbah. Yah misalkan kesepian, tinggal langkahkan kaki kiri atau ke kanan, atau ke depan, atau bahkan ke belakang, bisa ngobrol ama tetangga. Asik ajah ngilangin bosen dan terlebih menjalin hubungan sosial lebih bermakna dan bagus daripada menjalin hubungan maya.

All to all, I already put Solo in my deepest heart. And I hope in future, Solo will be developed in building but keep it traditional things exist and the people there are the same. 
I'm very blessed to come to Solo every year :)

It's been more than two weeks I never posted, because I was studied hard hahaa. Okay then, this is weekend and I really want to create cake actually but it's gonna take long times then I decided to make dessert.

It's started when I opened Instagram' site, I saw photo of "coffee panna cotta". Firstly, I read that the recipe is quite simply and the ingredients also easy to find out. Secondly, because I really curious what it is, I asked to Google then I just knew that it such as italian dessert that is booming today. Thus, I search recipe anddddddd tadaaaaa .. with my innovation, here I share to you.

Ingredients :

* 250 ml plain milk

* 250 ml heavy cream (merk : Anchor)

* 50 gr sugar

* 1 tsp seaweed powder

* 3 tsp jelly gelatin

Strawberry Sauce:
* fresh strawberry
* sugar
* Blended both of them together

How to cook ?

1. Boiled milk and sugar together. 

2. Pour cream and gelatin and mixed it.

3. Pour cream into milk + sugar, add seaweed powder . Stir together until boiled up.

4. Pour into plate or glasses.

5. Put in refrigerator for 2 until 4 hours.

6. You can serve it with many kinds of berry toppings, coffee, green tea, or chocolate. But, I really love berry :)

Could you read "simple recipe"? Surely yes. But actually, I found the recipe which was different from above, they use gelatin from pork (not halal for Muslim), so I replace with jelly gelatin. And you know what? the dough wasn't freeze. I got annoyed then I put seaweed powder. Then, after two hours later, I ate that with strawberry sauce. It's so yummy and better to serve it while was cold.

look more closer .. ah, one of heaven dessert :9

The end of April .. and tomorrow will be my month, May and also my dag dig dug, hectic and anxiety month, I think. Do you guess what ? I let you to over thinking ...

Deadline and Failed.

How's the relation ? 

Just keep in my mind, I'll describe later but now I just request to Allah..

I ever heard that Indonesia have a lot of culture, resource, beautiful view and so on .. Hence I have my own huge dream to explore it. I think nowadays many people especially in twitter land say that "I Love Indonesia" or "I am proud as Indonesian". However, actually they didn't know their country well (I felt sorry if I wrote wrong).. It's just my point of view.
I have my experience when I went to Depok about 4 months ago, yap it's been so long but I never forgot to posted it. I visited the legendary mosque which built by one of entrepreneur in Indonesia (I am so sorry, I didn't know the real name, you can search on Google, hehehe..). My mother impressed with the architecture,  she said that the design was as gorgeous as Nabawi Mosque in Madinah (unfortunately, I never visit Madinah). I felt lucky while I found it here, not far from my hometown, just 2,5 hours. Yay, the name is Kubah Mas Mosque which is located in Depok, West Java. Kubah Mas is consist of the real gold in the top of mosque. I just could said "woooowww...", it such as vestige or historical subject. You can visit it while you are on holiday because their circumstances are really humble and clean...

falling in love with the architect... kyaaaaaaaaaaaa.. felt like in another part of world, but the weather here still more hot ..  

 As you can see, plant and grass is neatly and orderly .. Do not trample on green grass, forbidden..

Actually I wanna take all of four kubah mas, but i dunno how to take it well. Thus i just got 3 kubah :( but nice ya??

As I see for today, I put my attention to eat and exercise more. Thus, I prefer to consume this milk and oat just for today. I try to avoid white rice so many sugar is in it, not health for my body. Because I am too lazy to do running or gym, I will eat more healthy food. Hahaa, I hope that I will be consistent..

Here, I found at supermarket, low fat chocolate milk which still fresh although less sugar andddddd... product innovation of Quaker Oats, yap an Oatmeal Cookies, such as bittersweet..

Some people who get their first date think that dating is like dummies. Mostly, they do not know how to say clearly and get heart breathing. So.. we should know how to get successful on dating date. Here are some explanation about step itself.

First, dating is start from you. You should know about yourself well. How your way to describe about yourself and determine what you really want. You also know well about times not to date which means if you really want to date it is because you want not your need at that time. Do not be on dating while you are chaos so it is really dangerous. And also make sure that you want to date neither you need a place to live nor you have single less than one year. It all is very bad time being date with mate.

Second, you should know about who is the right person for you. Researcher says that physical attraction is rarely enough to find the right person. They say that there are three different types of emotion system, such as sex drive, emotion system is how romantic your mate are, and last is attachment which means sensitive common to find long term relationship with partner.

Third, try to find where best place to have dating. Scientist says that dating is about social context. You can find your partner because you also known your partner well from your school, he is your neighbor, how long you already know him. Another place to find your dating is come to dating service in your city.

Fourth, you have master to make a confidence games who like teacher for you. It is very helpful to make your appearance more confident at your first date. Looking confidence means that you should stand up straight, shake your partner hand firmly (do not shaking her hand), give your best smile, and keep eye contact.

Fifth, ask to your partner for a date. It is one way to ask a lot about your partner life. When you are on dating, you should dress as well as you can. Choose your best outfit to show that this is me and avoid to use sexy clothes. But remember, on your dating, your partner is not always see your appearance but also you attitude or behavior. So, do not acting, speak naturally.

To get success on your dating, second impression is really needed and try to practice and learn more about how to make you feel more and more confidence. 

p.s : All of text above is paraphrased from video which gives from my teacher. Hence I just re-state what I hear and see. Hope it will be good article.. :)

I put my heart on three essential words : BELIEVE, TRUST , and FAITH

Because I believe for studying hard, I can reach and arrive at my destiny

Because I trust to my Allah, I always make a conversation and share my problem to him, then I am not worry anymore..

Because I know God has the best plan for me, therefore I have high-faith. Before, I knew that our pray are divided into three parts : Allah will acceding your request quickly or will postpone or will be replace with the other best ones. Hence, I will wait for the best request comes to me with great smile also.

These are above is always inspire me while I've got problem and stuck on my way. I just try to imagine how beautiful the end of the street and smile happily.

Just be patient for the right moment and the right time with the right person :) 

[*I mean the right man haha..]

I just think that God creates colors for different meaning and also purpose. I love the way each color look. All of them are beautiful for me. That is some description for each paint :

p.s : I write down from my favorite one :*

♥ Black

Desc : I do not know well why I like black so bad. I adore its elegance, simple, and natural. I look much comfortable when wear it because I feel like model (read : seems like thin) muehehe .. :D

♥ Chocolate 

Desc : In simply, it is like you eat chocolate-bar. You'll become addictive, no matter how much you eat them, you'll consume it continuously and consciously. It really works when you get stress !!

♥ White 

Desc : They look more pure and holy things, like new-baby-born. 

♥ Grey

Desc : Actually, it is an abstract but really attractive, simple, eye-catching, and easy to mix and match with my wardrobe collection. It describes how minimal and humble you are..

♥ Orange

Desc : Fresh, cheerful, imaginative, and innovative. It likes orange-fruit, sour and sweet mix together. Perfect combination !

♥ Red

Desc : Brave, one step ahead, initiative and hazardous. Commonly, this type enjoy being entrepreneur.

♥ Pink and Purple

Desc : Openly and honest, I dislike it because it reflects how feminine you are. It's also cheerful, friendly, coddle but still good-girl. I think it is so cute and I hate being that.

♥ Green and Blue

Desc : It is great combination between green and blue, like tree and sky. It's all so nature and have good-spirit in every way they act and talk, really inspiring others.

I am like young-girl that happened today, being gloomy? Haha, that isn't me anymore because I think no sense for me. NO NEED WORRIES girl !! Why you just look at the past? Is that really important and you wanna go back and repair all of mistake? No Need. No Need. No Need ...

If you worried a lot, you will just stay on. So, move on guys. You are young and creative. I know you can  do best what you're doing right now and always hope best for your future. I mean that your future will be bright if you believe and pray. 

Hello universe.. 

I feel so sorry because I never posting again. Actually, I have many times to write but it seems like lazy for me. Hahaha.. Ya better for me to sleep. Latterly, I don't know exactly why I am become lazy-girl. I hate being like this (this is true from my deepest-heart) tsaaahhhh . Oia, I haven't better activity since I graduated. Sometimes I think it is better for me to be entrepreneur but I like study. Then, I just doing well for my future study. Bismillah....

On the other hand, when I am being lazy-beautiful-girl, I increase my softskill in cooking. I make cupcakes and do you know what? The taste isn't really good, haha, trust me. It is neither fluffy nor crunchy. Yaks. I throw up from my stomach. But, I think positively that someday I will make delicious and tasteful cake. And I hope every one will enjoy it.

Yay, should be more practice and never give up !!

Appearance of my cupcakes. My friends lie for me that the taste is good. But, when I ate, yakssss. Oh my God ! What kind of cake it is !!

Hello, love month February, why you come so fassstttttt? huvt, I think this month is always same with the others month. Because of nothing special ever came to me. Okay that is all not the point that I want to share. Forget about love month, especially love life. I just think about eat and eat more. I can forget all of my problems and such a negative thinking. hhmmmm.

You must know !! Two days before I went to Jakarta to attend an International Education Expo. I was sooooo excited to go there. Why? Yap, i am very curious about the real information from international university. There, I met an agent from many universities and asked them a lot. They were very kindly and helpful. Overall, I have got much clear informations. Thanks!

After attend an expo, i felt i was very hungry because i walked about 1,2 km from hotel to the expo places. My mouth ate three times but my stomach was full. haha.

I can't share all of culinary photos here, but if you wanna know, you can find at my instagram : ANNISAAKW

See you guys on the next post :)